January 2012
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I am sitting in a room filled with all my family and dear friends. Everyone is hovering over me as a giant birthday cake is placed directly in front of me. I have a birthday hat on and I am laughing as tons of loving hands are placing 25 candles on the cake making sure it is just perfect. My dear friend is lighting the candles, my aunts are getting the song started and sitting on my lap are my...
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December 2011
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“Merry Christmas Mummy. Merry Christmas.”
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“ There is no pain so great as the memory of JOY in present grief”
There is some kind of beautiful magic that comes in those last final weeks you spend with a loved one leaving for heaven. I don’t think words will ever be able to truly explain the depth of what you experience. The magic came the day after the doctors told us she would be starting her final leg of the race- her 3 week journey to heaven. The magic felt and looked a lot like sorrow. It was...
November 2011
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I am driving in the car doing my ordinary daily routine and suddenly a darling 9 year old boy asks me out of the blue “what was she like?”
I didn’t have to ask who he was asking about. I knew. He wondered. His little mind was thinking and pondering looking out the window as the fall leaves fell that chilly afternoon.
“She was magical” i said. ” She was...
October 2011
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“Rise above this, Rise above Emmy”
is what my dear mother stressed to me one afternoon ( hands clenched ever so tightly that I could feel her hand pulsing in mine) in her bedroom.
She talked of what she expected from her daughter. Her last moments of crucial parenting before she left for her new home in heaven.
I sat down with a notepad in hand prepared to write down every word she...
September 2011
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March 2011
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February 2011
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January 2011
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I can still close my eyes and remember the sound of the stretcher wheels outside my bedroom door that cold, dark morning after she had passed. The sound of wheels hitting the hard wood floor made my bedroom door shake. If you ever heard this unique sound then you know exactly what I am talking about. It makes almost like a swishing sound. Swish. Swish. Swish-hearing this noise grow louder and...
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December 2010
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